(Re)Discovery

So much has (and hasn't) happened in the last month. I got behind on updating and then I just didn't know where to begin.

So we'll start with the bad news. I've been struggling like mad with food and self-image lately. I've been eating like mad and not tracking hardly at all. I started back with the guilty cycle and depression that got me into this mess in the first place. Here's the trouble, aside from the eating and lack of gym and abundance of guilty/bad feelings. I've dug myself out of this depression cycle before, but I can't remember how I did it. It's always been just kind of a "waking up." Well, I'm ready to wake up again. So I started small. Today I went to Zumba and ate a protein bar for breakfast. I'm through 32 ounces of water already, and I'm doing okay.

In better news, I managed not to gain more than a pound or two in this whole thing. I'm taking this first week of summer, and I'm dedicating it to rediscovery. I've been wearing some old clothes I haven't had the confidence to put on lately. I'm heading back to the gym and I have a plan for that. I'm getting wedding invites out. I'm framing a couple of our engagement pictures (post to follow) and I'm getting back to me. The stress of the end of the school year was a little too much for me on top of everything else.

But I'm good today. And that's a start.